Day 6-

So let’s take a little break, well kind of. I know all this info seems like a lot, because it is a lot, and there is even more… a lot more. So I wanted to talk about daily life with Diabetes and my outlook on life. I know this is all scary stuff… a lot of talk about death, but it is what it is. We T1D live with this everyday, it is our normal, yes a screwed up version of normal, but normal non-the less. We are strong because we don’t have a choice, well we do but it is not a very good or fair choice. Diabetes is a 24/7 job that is always changing and never EVER predictable. The day you think you have it all figured out is the day your BG bottoms out 5 times in 3 hours and you are so full of juice you feel like Violet from Willy Wonka. I have a lot of people say to me, “Well I could never give my self shots, I would just have to die” and well you would because if you don’t you will die, and really the shots are not the worst part. Please understand I am not telling you this because I want you to feel bad for me, this is just my reality, these are my fact of life. So that is why, if you know me at all, I choose to be happy… like all the time. This is something I CHOOSE to be, because even on bad days, I am alive, and that is a fantastic day in my book. For those of you that are close to me I do know that I can seriously annoy some people… yes I am aware of your thought of “how in the hell can she always be that cheery” but the truth of the matter is it totally a choice and yes sometimes I am faking it, and I just keep faking it until I am in that cheery frame of mind. Diabetes has soooo many uncontrollable factors, it is an exhausting disease, and my way of rebelling is to be happy, live the best damn life I can, wear bright colored clothing… yes I know how bright and how much I sometimes don’t match, to push myself harder and to always smile.. because those are all things simply diabetes can’t take from me. Also T1D has taught me that all that little shit in life just doesn’t matter…. It doesn’t. Life is wayyyy to short to waste or worry about what everyone else thinks. Life is here to have fun… it is really what you make of it. Is it all sunshine and rainbows all the time? Hell no, it is not, but if you look close enough there might be a rainbow in there somewhere if not, you can make your own rainbow. Yes I have bad days… I have extremely bad, bad days, yesterday for instance, my tube pulled out of my pump site while I was sleeping… this has only happened one other time, but I didn’t get insulin for 4+ hours, I actually don’t know how long exactly, and when I woke up from my sensor going off my BG was 415. That is high folks! I had to give myself a huge amount of insulin to bring my BG down and it took 5 hours. In those 5 hours I drank probably about a gallon of water, no joke, and felt like I got hit by a bus, plus my vision was screwed up all day. Then later in the day my BG was low 3 times, even though I was conservative with the corrective insulin dose I gave myself earlier. This is life with T1D, but the crazy thing is life just keeps going and the world keeps turning. So make the best of what you have, live life, smile, be kind, because life and kindness are a gift. Also now that you are beginning to understand some of the factors and facts of T1D don’t worry about us too much, please understand we have been dealing with all this the whole time, everyday, 24/7. The only difference is now you know and have a better understanding. The best things you can do are understand us and listen to us, or ask questions. Most T1D just want you to ASK ASK ASK if you have a question because that is the best way for us to share our lives with you, because just like everyone else we are just trying to make the best lives we can. Tomorrow The CARB.. that nasty and yet so necessary four-letter word.